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The Search
01:19
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Do you really want to be here, was the pressure too much
Just give me one good reason why I shouldn't just
Walk to the other side, I don't even know
Why you give a damn, I never did anything for you
But time being wasted is not what I intended
And through all of this, all we've done is pretended
There is magnetism in the air
A field, a bond, a sign somewhere
But to be fair
If you really feel like it's the best use of our time
The search is not impossible but it will lead us far and wide
It's not as easy as you think
I can't begin to understand
Why you'd care to think at all
I never did anything for you
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Atlas
03:35
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This far I've never done anything with my life
Heaven knows my virtue never took me far
I'm living with everything to give
And nothing to give to
I like to think I'm some kind of saint
But what have I ever done for the world
From which all I've received are favours
That I never seek to return
Pin back my eyelids, make me see this through
By the end you'll let me know I've never done anything better than you
All I want to be, is something more than me
Morality, discovered in the confines in which it lays
The bloodshot eyes, of my mistrusting stare
As even mirrors know my struggle was never really there
Fracture my satisfaction, make me truly care
Pierce the doubts of my ambitions
To relieve the world of the weight it bears
But I know I can't save the world
I'm no hero
Heaven knows my virtue never took me far
Drain my sins from me, to set my conscience free
Morality, recovered from the confines in which it laid
Keeping my complacency at bay
Complacency at bay
Empathy nullified, how did I come to be so numb
Come to care so little for the world I'm living in
Atlas has served too long, while I've stood idly by
Watching in indifference as the world's crushed by the sky
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3. |
Truthless Lips
03:41
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It's not so easy
I thought we had found peace
But you couldn't let this be
From truthless lips you bled
I had to clear my head
I turned to you and said
I never wanted to see you again
Don’t bother with your disguise
Cause I see through each of your lies
I refuse to let you shift the blame
How’d you ever think that this could be the same
Secreting words like blood seeping from a mouth infested with
The lasting bitterness of the spoiled haven that we once lay in
The pool at your feet grows darker
With each drop that leaves your lips
With each heartless word you act as if you never let slip
Label me as a deceiver, declining acknowledgement of your own perjury
You were never my muse nor anything more than my greatest regret
And I hope you know
I hope you know
I never wanted to see you again
You must have known that you had this coming
Your glass facade’s been cracked
So you can stop running from the truth
There was a time where I thought I truly cared for you
But now you’re spitting blood on the clean slate
That I’d sheltered from my gaping wounds
I tried to keep the peace
But your feigned sentiments are lost on me
And I may not be a saint, I can’t say that I’ve never bled
But I quit living in my head; I expelled myself as I did you
Now with my mind devoid of your presence
And despite what you may believe
I truly wish you well but just ask that you leave me be
Ask that you let me be
You must’ve known that you had this coming
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4. |
Child
02:55
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A bullet to the head is all it took to kill the child in me
A gunshot ringing out awakened me from all my dreams
A hedonistic fall from grace, indulging my sadistic traits
Have I learned nothing from all of my mistakes
Faces around me fade away, is this all a fucking game to me
Finding the mystic puzzle piece to fill the hole, in my brain
Sick and twisted life, why have you forsaken me
Taken the things I wished weren't real
And made them too clear to unsee
Masochistic lies, I tell myself
Are the only things that keep me from this reality I've tried to hide
Stripping paper off the walls that I had always called my home
Revealing concrete barriers in which I've been unknowingly enclosed
Waiting for my life to live itself
Go on without me
'Cause I can't bear to just follow you like this anymore
Tell me, where do we stand, if not alone
Struggling through this world that's too colossal for us to hold
For too long now my head has been hollow
A chamber in which I've been contained
So tell me where do we stand
Is this all just a game
Sick and twisted life, why have you forsaken me
The things I wished weren't real
Have become too clear to unsee
Masochistic lies, I tell myself
Are the only things that keep me from this reality I've tried to hide
I've tried to hide
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5. |
Pick Me Apart
01:44
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I never asked to represent anything other than myself
For any connection to your cause
Aren't you the one who chose to flaunt me, put me on display
But when I show my true colours
All you can do is cower away
I won't let you pick me apart
Frick
I won't let you pick me apart
I need not your charity
Nor do I crave your praise
'Cause if I'm not the figurehead you wanted
Then you can fucking find it some other way
I'm not your saviour
I won't let you pick me apart
YEAH MOTHERFUCKER... fucker... fucker... fucker
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Shelter
02:40
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I hate that I can’t seem to extend my invitation
To the shelter behind my eyes
Because I swear that I’d strip my skin back
Just to provide you with a place to hide
This world’s not one of kindness but in the seclusion we reside
Each sorrow we must endure is universally romanticised
Grant me entrance into your decaying home
No longer, will I allow you to face this suffering alone
Sacrifice your solitude for a chance to break your curse
I’ll shelter you, as soon as I break mine first
I hate that I don’t possess the power within me
To lift the misery from your soul
But I swear I’d rend myself you mend you
I’d tear myself apart to make you whole
I’d rend myself to mend you, I’d tear myself apart to make you whole
Tear myself apart
Shatter my shields and pull down my walls
To repair the fraying edges of your halls
No longer will I allow you to suffer alone
You deserve more than I could ever give
You deserve more than I could ever give
More than I could give
This world’s not one of kindness
But in the protection I provide
If we all must live in sorrow
At least
At least we’ll have a place to hide
So accept my invitation to my home
No longer, will I allow you to face this suffering alone
Sacrifice your solitude for a chance to break your curse
I’ll shelter you, as soon as I break mine first
I’d tear myself apart to make you whole
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7. |
Remain
03:35
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Seeing the look upon your face, it chilled me to my core
And yet your eyes remain averted, you never look at me anymore
So now I'm left broken and hurting, neglected and unseen
My place here remains uncertain
'Til I learn to use my wings and leave
But try as I might to turn back the clocks
The time remains the same
I cut out my heart in confidence and gifted it to you
But you threw it in my face
Your hand just like a dagger pressed up against my chest
I was foolish to think that with broken wings
I could fix this broken nest
Because a heart, a hope and feeling is all I truly need
But in your act of treason you robbed me of all three
Are there warnings I should be heeding
Muffled by the sound of hopeful dreams
Forming a euphony misleading me throughout the lies I've seen
I cut out my heart in confidence and gifted it to you
Still your eyes remain averted, as you refuse to see this through
Your hands just like a dagger pressed up against my chest
But I'd happily die
To let you know that I wish you all the best
Said I'd happily die
To get in just one last word
And leave the rest
The way I thought I had left you
Better off unspoken, cause each sentence only cuts me deeper
But these burdens are much too heavy, to carry and to keep them
Upon these broken wings
And though you could never know this
For just a glance I'd scream anything you wanted
I might not have been the smartest, I may not have done it right
But I know I just can't help it
Cause all these regrets leave me lying awake alone at night
Its been more than a fucking year now
And all of my dreams remain of you
But it feels as if I'm a ghost
A phantasm that you see straight through
And the pounding of my heartbeat
As it's laying there right on the ground
Seems as if it muffles all the warnings
That had always been around
And I wish we'd spent more time alone
But the clocks refuse to be reversed
And you spend no time reassuring me
So I remain broken and hurt
And laying next to you I'd shine a light
To see it reflecting in your eyes
But they remain sealed shut
So I may as well remove mine
And if I could, I'd ask you to stay
Not that you'd reply anyway
As your eyes remain averted
And I remain unseen
While my place there remains forbidden
I'll remain here with you in my dreams
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Synthesis of Self Auckland, New Zealand
Hailing from Tāmaki Makaurau, Aotearoa, Synthesis of Self have accumulated a considerable following in the local alternative music scene since they began performing in 2019. Their music balances fast, high energy sections, bouncy choruses and hefty breakdowns to exhibit a unique style of melodic hardcore inspired by artists such as Counterparts, Belmont and Strung Out. ... more
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